For years, I constantly wondered what on Earth I want to do as a career. I considered teaching, becoming a lawyer, becoming a business woman, working in the technology field, and none of it seemed to fit. I couldn’t do anything more than toy with the idea before a sense of wrongness made me change my mind time and time again. I couldn’t put my finger on why that was, until, I think, that day.
I woke up that morning and posted a blog I had written a while ago. It was simple, far from perfect, but I enjoyed posting on my blog and hadn’t done it in a while. I began another blog post, then took a break to continue work on a song I had started a couple of months before. I loved it so far, but it was still lacking a chorus and needed some reorganizing. As I arranged, lyricized, and invented, another theme found it’s way into existence, and I took a few minutes to develop and record that so that I could go back to it sometime in the future. From there, I stopped in to edit a bit of the fantasy trilogy I have been working on with my sister, and realized.
Everything in me longs to create. I want to create new friendships, new opportunities, new stories, new songs. I want to add to the world with pristine, sparkling novelty, mined like diamonds from the unsearched depths of my soul. It sounds dramatic, but it is dramatic! Think about it!
When the Lord made the universe, he spoke it into being out of nothing… nothing! Ideas, music, words, stories, they are like that! You may start with an empty page, but you end with lines, paragraphs, pages of text and meaning that did not exist before. You may begin with silence, but a few minutes later, there is a melody and chords and poetry that can speak to the heart. It’s the closest we can get to taking part in the drama of the first creation.
I think every human has a desire to participate in creation like that at some level. Whether it be having children, or starting a company, we long to bring things into being that once were not. It is a part of our DNA as image bearers of our own maker. Second only to serving my Lord, I want that to be my life’s work.